Showing posts with label complex PTSD. Show all posts
Showing posts with label complex PTSD. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Storm Clouds




It's been awhile. Every time I thought to write on here, I just couldn't seem to get to it. Something always came up, or I just didn't know where to start. So I'm not really going to do  much of an update, just because it would be too much, and some of it, I just don't remember. I can honestly say that the holidays this year were actually pretty nice. Ed came to spend Thanksgiving with me. We went to lunch at Jack in the Box. I was hungry! I ended up eating all of my chicken nuggets and onion rings! That's a rarity! Then we went back to my place and the proprietors invited him to stay for a nice Thanksgiving meal! I don't think he's had one of those for a long time. I didn't even think we'd have on at first, so that was a really nice thing! Then for Christmas, we got together again. I mean, gifts don't matter. What mattered was that we got to spend time together! 

New Years was wild! LOL! I bought a huge bottle of tequila and the guys and I here all were taking shots. Of course, Juan and I took the most. We were doing shots for 5 1/2 hours! Grant you, not like one after another, but through that time. It was so much fun! Of course, the next morning, my stomach was pretty ripped, but that was it. I don't get hangovers. I never have. I can't remember how Juan was. I did go out and buy some tums. They only helped a little, but it was okay. Within a couple of days I was completely back to normal. 

Ed and I have been able to get together a couple of times since then, but finances have been tight, so it's hard for him to make the trip to see me. However, emails work for now. And I am still emailing my Aussie. I mean, he's one of my best friends and will forever own a piece of my heart too. He has always been there. He worries about me. He listens to me and knows more about what goes on in my head than anyone in the universe, I think.

Another neat thing, is Steve and I started writing on a story about two of our role-playing group characters Katianna and Paul. It was something I had always wanted to do with our characters, but since the rpg fizzled, we were never able to do it. I mean, Jovo and I never even got a chance to finish it the Katianna and Kalimar storyline. That would have been interesting! Anyway, Steve and I haven't written much on it yet, and it hasn't even gotten to the interesting parts, but we're making progress towards it, which is nice. 

I've also been working on my own stories, In fact, last month, at the beginning of the month, I was only on page 12 of this story "Angel" I was writing. But then, I got some concentration with a little help in that area and I was able to actually finish it! I wrote over one hundred pages! It was absolutely amazing! That's never happened before! Grant you, a lot of it, I had written out by hand - which I also did last month. It just all worked out beautifully. The story was a good one too. It was one that had been kicking around in my head in one form or another since I was a teenager. I was just glad it fell into place so well! I am working on another story that I have a bunch of notes for, but they aren't detailed like the ones I had written for "Angel." They're more like outlines, so it's taking a little more brain power when I'm writing it. Plus, my concentration hasn't been the best this month. I'm hoping that will change, but it's one of those touch and go things. At least I pretty much have the story written out with the notes. I just have to actually write the notes out and put them into something other than sketchy notes. But it'll be the first one I finish in my assassin series. 

Jordan has been wonderful to me. He comes and sees me on a regular basis. Even today, we met up at Grossmont center. He bought me lunch at Panda Express. I had walnut shrimp and orange chicken. I was eating it all day, because I just can't eat a lot all at once still. I did buy my drink and I couldn't resist getting some cream cheese wontons. Then after that, we went to Walmart. Jordan actually helped me pay for a few of the things I needed and wanted to get. After that, he helped me take it home, stopping at Vons to get me a creamer. I have to say I was pretty wiped out from all the walking. I just wasn't feeling so great. Since yesterday, I have been very emotional. I hate it, because I feel like I want to cry. And anyone who knows me knows I hate to cry! It's something I've hated since I was a kid. I guess it has to do with feeling vulnerable, and that's something I do not like. So it's been struggle. I hate it! I was hoping that maybe today I'd feel better and that I would be back to myself, but I wasn't. I was fighting tears all day. Even being with Jordan didn't alleviate it. While with him I wanted to cry too! Go figure.

Then Cassi also called me today. Apparently, she's sick. She's living in Tahoe, kind of. I mean, her, her boyfriend and a friend are together. Right now, they are living in their van, though they have jobs, but don't have enough to get a place yet, I guess. She says she might have strep throat. I told her to go to the ER. That they had to see her and that they would help her get her medication. She says they won't, but they would, I think. They've done it for me before. So she told me she would. Funny enough, she sounded okay when she called me later. In fact, her boyfriend butt dialed me. Then she called me back and apologized for that and that I probably heard their conversation, which wasn't much of anything. Just talking about what they wanted to eat for dinner. But then, a short time later, her boyfriend called, and the first thing he says is, “You've treated Cassi like shit all her life -” and that's as far as he got with me. I went off. I told him if that's what was going on, that I wasn't going to talk to him. That the conversation was pretty much done and I hung up, though, I heard him saying – no wait, that's not what I mean. But I didn't care. All I could feel was the shit that Ajay, Cassi's ex-finance put me through. I mean, really. So I texted them. I told them that I made my mistakes, but I thought Cassi and I were past that. That I was now having flashbacks to her ex-fiance and was crying. And that if that's how they felt, they didn't need to contact me again. Well, they tried to text me. It was like, “I just meant that despite all of that, you raised a beautiful girl.” Whatever. How is that supposed to make that any better? Anyway, they also tried to call and I didn't answer. They texted a few more times, but I haven't even looked at them. My phone shows me a portion of the text when it comes in and the last one said that Cassi loves me very much. Yeah, maybe, but I was in tears. The emotional flashbacks are the worst. I mean, you just can't escape them! In fact, the ONLY time I ever tried to take my own life was when we lived in Mexico: Cassi, her ex-fiance, and myself. He was verbally and emotionally abusing me and poisoning her, that I just felt trapped and there was no escape, plus the pain was so intense. I had 2mg ativan pills. I didn't want to swallow the whole bottle, because I was afraid I would throw them up. So instead, I was taking a lot of milligrams at a time. I can't remember how much, but I spaced them out. I spaced them out too far. They made me dopey and I eventually went to sleep, but that was it. I suppose that was a good thing. But the damage it's left in me, I'm not sure I'll ever recover from. We'll see. I just haven't gotten far enough in my therapy, I guess. Hopefully, things will eventually get less intense. But I'm not sure if I'm even going to be able to talk to her tomorrow either. This has really hurt and upset me. I'm sure Jordan was disturbed. The kids rarely ever saw me cry, because I hate to do that. I just don't like to. As I said, I don't like to feel vulnerable. It's one of the reasons I have a hard time sleeping. If you're asleep, you're vulnerable. That's why I usually have to take something to make me sleep. It sucks, but that's how it's been for a very, very long time. I just don't know how I'll feel in the morning, or even in the afternoon. I guess we'll see.

Anyway, I need to see if I can get my head on straight enough to maybe write a little more about the White Panther and her story. It would be nice to get a few more pages. Of course, I'd settle for one or two. We'll see. At least, I have some good things going on. Let's hope the stormy skies will give way to clear skies and maybe a rainbow if I'm lucky. I guess we'll see!




Monday, March 30, 2015

Symptoms of Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Complex post-traumatic stress disorder

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
         
   
Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD) also known as developmental trauma disorder (DTD)[1] or complex trauma[2] is a psychological injury that results from protracted exposure to prolonged social and/or interpersonal trauma in the context of dependence, captivity or entrapment (a situation lacking a viable escape route for the victim), which results in the lack or loss of control, helplessness, and deformations of identity and sense of self. Examples include people who have experienced chronic maltreatment, neglect or abuse in a care-giving relationship, hostages, prisoners of war, concentration camp survivors, and survivors of some religious cults.[3] C-PTSD is distinct from, but similar to, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), somatization disorder, dissociative identity disorder, and borderline personality disorder.[4]
However, C-PTSD was not accepted by the American Psychiatric Association as a mental disorder. It was not included in DSM-IV or in DSM-5, published in 2013.[5]
Though mainstream journals have published papers on C-PTSD, the category is not formally recognized in diagnostic systems such as Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) or International Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related Health Problems (ICD).[6] It may be included in the upcoming ICD 11.[citation needed] However, the former includes "disorder of extreme stress, not otherwise specified" and the latter has this similar code "personality change due to classifications found elsewhere" (31.1), both of whose parameters accommodate C-PTSD.[4]
C-PTSD involves complex and reciprocal interactions between multiple biopsychosocial systems. It was first described in 1992 by Judith Herman in her book Trauma & Recovery and an accompanying article.[4][7] Forms of trauma associated with C-PTSD involve a history of prolonged subjection to totalitarian control[4] including sexual abuse (especially child sexual abuse), physical abuse, emotional abuse, domestic violence or torture—all repeated traumas in which there is an actual or perceived inability for the victim to escape.[8][9]
 

Symptoms[edit]

Child and adolescents[edit]

The diagnosis of PTSD was originally developed for adults who had suffered from a single event trauma, such as rape, or a traumatic experience during a war.[10] However, the situation for many children is quite different. Children can suffer chronic trauma such as maltreatment, family violence, and a disruption in attachment to their primary caregiver.[11] In many cases, it is the child's caregiver who caused the trauma.[10] The diagnosis of PTSD does not take into account how the developmental stages of children may affect their symptoms and how trauma can affect a child’s development.[10] Currently there is no proper diagnosis for this condition, but the term developmental trauma disorder has been suggested.[11] This developmental form of trauma places children at risk for developing psychiatric and medical disorders.[11]
Repeated traumatization during childhood leads to symptoms that differ from those described for PTSD.[12] Cook and others describe symptoms and behavioural characteristics in seven domains:[13][14]
  • Attachment - "problems with relationship boundaries, lack of trust, social isolation, difficulty perceiving and responding to other's emotional states, and lack of empathy"
  • Biology - "sensory-motor developmental dysfunction, sensory-integration difficulties, somatization, and increased medical problems"
  • Affect or emotional regulation - "poor affect regulation, difficulty identifying and expressing emotions and internal states, and difficulties communicating needs, wants, and wishes"
  • Dissociation - "amnesia, depersonalization, discrete states of consciousness with discrete memories, affect, and functioning, and impaired memory for state-based events"
  • Behavioural control - "problems with impulse control, aggression, pathological self-soothing, and sleep problems"
  • Cognition - "difficulty regulating attention, problems with a variety of "executive functions" such as planning, judgement, initiation, use of materials, and self-monitoring, difficulty processing new information, difficulty focusing and completing tasks, poor object constancy, problems with "cause-effect" thinking, and language developmental problems such as a gap between receptive and expressive communication abilities."
  • Self-concept -"fragmented and disconnected autobiographical narrative, disturbed body image, low self-esteem, excessive shame, and negative internal working models of self".

Adults[edit]

Adults with C-PTSD have sometimes experienced prolonged interpersonal traumatization as children as well as prolonged trauma as adults. This early injury interrupts the development of a robust sense of self and of others. Because physical and emotional pain or neglect was often inflicted by attachment figures such as caregivers or older siblings, these individuals may develop a sense that they are fundamentally flawed and that others cannot be relied upon.[7][15]
This can become a pervasive way of relating to others in adult life described as insecure attachment. The diagnosis of dissociative disorder and PTSD in the current DSM-IV TR (2000) do not include insecure attachment as a symptom. Individuals with Complex PTSD also demonstrate lasting personality disturbances with a significant risk of revictimization.[16]
Six clusters of symptoms have been suggested for diagnosis of C-PTSD.[6][17] These are (1) alterations in regulation of affect and impulses; (2) alterations in attention or consciousness; (3) alterations in self-perception; (4) alterations in relations with others; (5) somatization, and (6) alterations in systems of meaning.[17]
Experiences in these areas may include:[4][18][19]
  • Variations in consciousness, including forgetting traumatic events (i.e., psychogenic amnesia), reliving experiences (either in the form of intrusive PTSD symptoms or in ruminative preoccupation), or having episodes of dissociation.
  • Changes in self-perception, such as a chronic and pervasive sense of helplessness, paralysis of initiative, shame, guilt, self-blame, a sense of defilement or stigma, and a sense of being completely different from other human beings
  • Varied changes in the perception of the perpetrator, such as attributing total power to the perpetrator (caution: victim's assessment of power realities may be more realistic than clinician's), becoming preoccupied with the relationship to the perpetrator, including a preoccupation with revenge, idealization or paradoxical gratitude, a sense of a special relationship with the perpetrator or acceptance of the perpetrator's belief system or rationalizations.
  • Alterations in relations with others, including isolation and withdrawal, persistent distrust, a repeated search for a rescuer, disruption in intimate relationships and repeated failures of self-protection.
  • Loss of, or changes in, one's system of meanings, which may include a loss of sustaining faith or a sense of hopelessness and despair.

Diagnostics[edit]

C-PTSD was under consideration for inclusion in the DSM-IV but was not included when the DSM-IV was published in 1994.[4] It was neither included in DSM-5. PTSD will continue to be listed as a disorder.[5]

Differential diagnosis[edit]

Post-traumatic stress disorder[edit]

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) was included in the DSM-III (1980), mainly due to the relatively large numbers of American combat veterans of the Vietnam War who were seeking treatment for the lingering effects of combat stress. In the 1980s, various researchers and clinicians suggested that PTSD might also accurately describe the sequelae of such traumas as child sexual abuse and domestic abuse.[20] However, it was soon suggested that PTSD failed to account for the cluster of symptoms that were often observed in cases of prolonged abuse, particularly that which was perpetrated against children by caregivers during multiple childhood and adolescent developmental stages. Such patients were often extremely difficult to treat with established methods.[20]
PTSD descriptions fail to capture some of the core characteristics of C-PTSD. These elements include captivity, psychological fragmentation, the loss of a sense of safety, trust, and self-worth, as well as the tendency to be revictimized. Most importantly, there is a loss of a coherent sense of self: it is this loss, and the ensuing symptom profile, that most pointedly differentiates C-PTSD from PTSD.[18]
C-PTSD is also characterized by attachment disorder, particularly the pervasive insecure, or disorganized-type attachment.[21] DSM-IV (1994) dissociative disorders and PTSD do not include insecure attachment in their criteria. As a consequence of this aspect of C-PTSD, when some adults with C-PTSD become parents and confront their own children's attachment needs, they may have particular difficulty in responding sensitively especially to their infants' and young children's routine distress—such as during routine separations, despite these parents' best intentions and efforts.[22] Although the great majority of survivors do not abuse others,[23] this difficulty in parenting may have adverse repercussions for their children's social and emotional development if parents with this condition and their children do not receive appropriate treatment.[24][25]
Thus, a differentiation between the diagnostic category of C-PTSD and that of PTSD has been suggested. C-PTSD better describes the pervasive negative impact of chronic repetitive trauma than does PTSD alone.[26][19]
C-PTSD also differs from Continuous Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CTSD) which was introduced into the trauma literature by Gill Straker (1987).[27] It was originally used by South African clinicians to describe the effects of exposure to frequent, high levels of violence usually associated with civil conflict and political repression. The term is also applicable to the effects of exposure to contexts in which gang violence and crime are endemic as well as to the effects of ongoing exposure to life threats in high-risk occupations such as police, fire and emergency services.

Traumatic grief[edit]

Main articles: Grief and Grief counseling
Traumatic grief[28][29][30][31] or complicated mourning[32] are conditions[33] where both trauma and grief coincide. There are conceptual links between trauma and bereavement since loss of a loved one is inherently traumatic.[34] If a traumatic event was life-threatening, but did not result in death, then it is more likely that the survivor will experience post-traumatic stress symptoms. If a person dies, and the survivor was close to the person who died, then it is more likely that symptoms of grief will also develop. When the death is of a loved one, and was sudden or violent, then both symptoms often coincide. This is likely in children exposed to community violence.[35][36]
For C-PTSD to manifest, the violence would occur under conditions of captivity, loss of control and disempowerment, coinciding with the death of a friend or loved one in life-threatening circumstances. This again is most likely for children and stepchildren who experience prolonged domestic or chronic community violence that ultimately results in the death of friends and loved ones. The phenomenon of the increased risk of violence and death of stepchildren is referred to as the Cinderella effect.

Attachment theory, BPD and C-PTSD[edit]

C-PTSD may share some symptoms with both PTSD and borderline personality disorder.[26] Judith Herman has suggested that C-PTSD be used in place of BPD.[37][38][39]
It may help to understand the intersection of attachment theory with C-PTSD and BPD if one reads the following opinion of Bessel A. van der Kolk together with an understanding drawn from a description of BPD:
Uncontrollable disruptions or distortions of attachment bonds precede the development of post-traumatic stress syndromes. People seek increased attachment in the face of danger. Adults, as well as children, may develop strong emotional ties with people who intermittently harass, beat, and, threaten them. The persistence of these attachment bonds leads to confusion of pain and love. Trauma can be repeated on behavioural, emotional, physiologic, and neuroendocrinologic levels. Repetition on these different levels causes a large variety of individual and social suffering.
Anger directed against the self or others is always a central problem in the lives of people who have been violated and this is itself a repetitive re-enactment of real events from the past. Compulsive repetition of the trauma usually is an unconscious process that, although it may provide a temporary sense of mastery or even pleasure, ultimately perpetuates chronic feelings of helplessness and a subjective sense of being bad and out of control. Gaining control over one's current life, rather than repeating trauma in action, mood, or somatic states, is the goal of healing.[40]
Seeking increased attachment to people, especially to care-givers who inflict pain, confuses love and pain and increases the likelihood of a captivity like that of betrayal bonding,[41] (similar to Stockholm syndrome) and of disempowerment and lack of control. If the situation is perceived as life-threatening then traumatic stress responses will likely arise and C-PTSD more likely diagnosed in a situation of insecure attachment than PTSD.[citation needed]
However, 25% of those diagnosed with BPD have no known history of childhood neglect or abuse and individuals are six times as likely to develop BPD if they have a relative who was so diagnosed[citation needed] compared to those who do not. One conclusion is that there is a genetic predisposition to BPD unrelated to trauma. Researchers conducting a longitudinal investigation of identical twins found that "genetic factors play a major role in individual differences of borderline personality disorder features in Western society."[42]
In Trauma and Recovery, Herman expresses the additional concern that patients who suffer from C-PTSD frequently risk being misunderstood as inherently 'dependent', 'masochistic', or 'self-defeating', comparing this attitude to the historical misdiagnosis of female hysteria.[4]

Treatment[edit]

Children[edit]

The utility of PTSD derived psychotherapies for assisting children with C-PTSD is uncertain. This area of diagnosis and treatment calls for caution in use of the category C-PTSD. Ford and van der Kolk have suggested that C-PTSD may not be as useful a category for diagnosis and treatment of children as a proposed category of developmental trauma disorder (DTD).[43] For DTD to be diagnosed it requires a
'history of exposure to early life developmentally adverse interpersonal trauma such as sexual abuse, physical abuse, violence, traumatic losses of other significant disruption or betrayal of the child's relationships with primary caregivers, which has been postulated as an etiological basis for complex traumatic stress disorders. Diagnosis, treatment planning and outcome are always relational.'[44]
Since C-PTSD or DTD in children is often caused by chronic maltreatment, neglect or abuse in a care-giving relationship the first element of the biopsychosocial system to address is that relationship. This invariably involves some sort of child protection agency. This both widens the range of support that can be given to the child but also the complexity of the situation, since the agency's statutory legal obligations may then need to be enforced.
A number of practical, therapeutic and ethical principles for assessment and intervention have been developed and explored in the field:[45]
  • Identifying and addressing threats to the child's or family's safety and stability are the first priority.
  • A relational bridge must be developed to engage, retain and maximize the benefit for the child and caregiver.
  • Diagnosis, treatment planning and outcome monitoring are always relational (and) strengths based.
  • All phases of treatment should aim to enhance self-regulation competencies.
  • Determining with whom, when and how to address traumatic memories.
  • Preventing and managing relational discontinuities and psychosocial crises.

Adults[edit]

Herman believes recovery from C-PTSD occurs in three stages. These are: establishing safety, remembrance and mourning for what was lost, and reconnecting with community and more broadly, society. Herman believes recovery can only occur within a healing relationship and only if the survivor is empowered by that relationship. This healing relationship need not be romantic or sexual in the colloquial sense of "relationship", however, and can also include relationships with friends, co-workers, one's relatives or children, and the therapeutic relationship.[4]
Complex trauma means complex reactions and this leads to complex treatments. Hence treatment for C-PTSD requires a multi-modal approach.[14] It has been suggested that treatment for C-PTSD should differ from treatment for PTSD by focusing on problems that cause more functional impairment than the PTSD symptoms. These problems include emotional dysregulation, dissociation, and interpersonal problems.[21] Six suggested core components of complex trauma treatment include:[14]
  1. Safety
  2. Self-regulation
  3. Self-reflective information processing
  4. Traumatic experiences integration
  5. Relational engagement
  6. Positive affect enhancement
Multiple treatments have been suggested for C-PTSD. Among these treatments are experiential and emotionally focused therapy, internal family systems therapy, sensorimotor psychotherapy, eye movement desensitization and reprocessing therapy (EMDR), Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), cognitive behavioral therapy, psychodynamic therapy, family systems therapy and group therapy.[46]